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i don't believe its friday agian. not that the week moved fast enough while i was i was still in the midst of it. its just standing here i looking there that makes it seem like the whole week went so damn fast.

first things first. j wants to say that she's sorry to marns. aeii. i've been in a damn confrontational mood of late. it probably has something to do with the damnned racist shit. the unreasonable hairy nosed chemistry teacher and the indian bus driver. oh and the class mates on the wrong side of the classroom. some are just plain suckups.

i should get out of this mood really. as much as i hate to admit it i really do feel super bitchy.the super j bitch of the century. which is thatt bad in relation to other super bitches but bitchy enough. i can feel the bitches floating in my vessels and pumping around my entire being.

i should pause.

my life is on 4x fast foward and i seem to have left myself somewhere in 2003. someone pass me the remore control so i can move on?

yes addy you may join me on my warpath. misery fury loves company. next week wil probably my loneliest week ever. all my friends with their damn promos or their projects. its hard to blame them when you know its not their fault. have i said i love you of late?

i do.

i love you and you and you.

yesterday was girlfriend outing with daryl. new police story is really good so all you slackers who aren't studying (i know) go watch. wincingly bloody at times but other than that its great. i hope you're feeling better sweets. i know its been a tiresome week.

today was catching up with eric. he looks the same, just more tired then i remember. thats what you get when you don't sleep enough and drink enough water. (during the day!) aeii anyhow it was fun even if i didn't manage to find any thing i was looking for.

i think weird how you get violently protective of what you are (chinese) and what you think you stand for when you're in an other environment. its tiresome to have your guard on 24/7. its a hang up i can't seem to let go of.

there is always next week to try.