i just realised i put 4 of april as today's date on the notes i sent to the IB co-oridinator. it was about my late extended essay proposal submission. i think i've establishment myslef as the most absent minded student in the entire building. not only am i unable to hand in my assignments on time, i do not know which month of the year it is right now.
the extended essay deadline is wayyyyyyy over due and i still haven't found a sponsor. i'm royally fucked. the only time i have the time to look for sponsors is during break or lunch. then there is the question of where the teacher is, i really detest the way teachers are never around when you need them most urgently. it doesn't help that the different departments are quite the distance away from each other.
you know how somedays everything crowds in your brain, the upcoming deadlines, the current work due, the work overdue, the tests, the special effort you have to put in for certain subjects, college application, university meetings. they are all trampling on my brain.
i don't hear myself think anymore. i don't think i know what its like to feel totally and utterly relaxed. i don't believe i've had the chance to say i've nothing to do today. otherdays i wish i had the time to be bored.
