how do i tell you i miss you when you're gone? how do i explain that missing is not something i pay attention to, that i'd rather not be missing you or anybody. can i try to make you understand that i'd rather not feel torn apart, to be put back together and torn again. how do i tell you that i miss you in moments but moments pass. sometimes i try to piece those moments together by digging into the past. there's only so far i can dig. where is the here and now?
