bugger that. i am quite the angsty child but all is well in the land of j.
i learn new things about myself everyday, and i have perhaps met too many people in this holiday that have pulled me in the completely opposite direction of where i was sure i was headed. they make me want to get really comfortable and gross moss around myself and these feelings of trust, sincerity, and laughter. i will always want to believe, and i will despite how much i feel otherwise sometimes. perhaps i will always be foolish that way, and if i were given a choice; i hope i never learn my lesson.
i thank you because you have so kindly served as my dark mirror and have shown me all the qualities i would loathe to posess and the very person i hope to never become. it is because of you that i choose to be foolish and that is why i will always believe.
this is the goodbye i never said and you will never hear but because you meant that much, i will give it its due moment of melodrama and intensity.
